I’ve been in a dark place with my WIP for the last few months. It’s way past my self-imposed finish date, but I’m nowhere near done with it. I realize now that I really jumped the gun with my beta readers and such. It needed so much more work than I realized.
That’s ok, though. This is my very first novel, and I had/have a lot of learning to do. Next time will be better, and the next time better than that.
Due to unforeseen circumstances, I’m going to have to get a job soon. I’ve been beyond lucky to have this dedicated time, all thanks to my amazing SO. Have you ever loved someone so much that it made you want to cry? I have, and I’m blessed enough to be engaged to that person. Now it’s time for me to step up and contribute in a different way, to help keep us afloat.
I’m grateful for the last year and a half, but also disappointed in myself. With no job, no kids, and no big responsibilities, I’ve made relatively little progress in the last five months. Sure, I had beta readers and got through my hand edits, but I know I should have done so much more. The guilt of not contributing monetarily while being stuck and depressed about my writing has absolutely been suffocating me.
So, with one month of freedom left, I’m making October my PerNoWriMo: Personal Novel (re)Writing Month. It’s time to shrug off the blanket of writer despair I’ve been under and buckle down.
Of course, even if I don’t finish, I’ll continue to work on my WIP. Nothing will ever stop me from doing that. But…I do hope to get out of this funk and get as much done as possible. During this month, I will still try to post to let you know my progress, but it probably won’t be as often.
Thank you to all of you who have supported me. I will do my best to make you proud.